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Saturday, June 28, 2008
it had been a horrible week for me. couldnt imagine that i had to face so much despite of not being able to face the shock. living in my worst times, i realised that at the end of the day, people cant really help me much though they are willing to give an extra hand for me. if im fated to live life which something is taking away from u then have to accept it. i had also learnt that there are some who still treat me like a stranger as if we are in the first year in poly. maybe they dont like to mix with me coz im always a sad person. they would rather mix with clever,smart and cheerful people around in class. im not jelous but its a fact. this is how people treat one another. i sometimes hate life coz its unfair sometimes. i had alot of unhealthy thoughts but its not going to solve my problem instead giving the burden to the people. still come to same thing, they would hate me for what i did to myself.
i had even bad dreams and the whole day seems like its lifeless to me and does not hold any meaning to it. although few close ones have heard me and had consoled me and advise me, i still remember and because of that, im learning to tolerate and change for the better. i may soon be far far away from so many people if im destined to receive another big shock. and maybe no one will remember me coz im just one useless friend who always have alot of sorrows...maybe someday, some may get tired of consoling me coz i am useless anyway...
